"By believing passionately in something that still does not exist, we create it. The nonexistent is whatever we have not sufficiently desired."

"(...) Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that."

"Only by living absurdly is it possible to break out of this infinite absurdity."

‘The man’s the work. Something doesn’t come out of nothing"

"You cannot find peace by avoiding life."

"I, I thought of that old joke, y'know, the, this... this guy goes to a psychiatrist and says, 'Doc, uh, my brother's crazy; he thinks he's a chicken.' And, uh, the doctor says, 'Well, why don't you turn him in?' The guy says, 'I would, but I need the eggs.' Well, I guess that's pretty much now how I feel about relationships; y'know, they're totally irrational, and crazy, and absurd, and... but, uh, I guess we keep goin' through it because, uh, most of us... need the eggs."

"I learned that just beneath the surface, there's another world, and still different worlds as one digs deeper. Nothing is as it seems -- I knew it as a kid, but couldn't find proof. It was just a feeling. There is goodness like those blue skies and flowers, but another force -- a wild pain and decay also accompanies everything."

5. i don't express a lot of things that i should express.

7. i try to avoid disagreements all the time.

9. i am too sensitive, for a lot of things.

10. i don't like, at all, how people try to find sense in everything and how they hate the lack of sense that exists in life.

11. if i don't make a carrer in cinema, i'll be really miserable.

13. i do believe in astrology, more than i should.

14. my biggest fear is to suffer some bad psychical violence.

15. i hate the ideas of nations, and patriotism.

16. i dispise any justifications to war and use of weapons, of any kind.

18. i prefer to be disliked by my ideas and beliefs than be liked by agreeing to bullshits.

19. i was sure about having a carrer in photography, not too sure these days.

23. i have a few close friends, not able to have a lot.

24. kindness is not a virtue to me, it's a necessity.

25. i feel deslocated and misundesrtood, most of the times.

(07/02/2009)

"These moments of escape are not to be despised. They come too seldom."

"Ser é perceber ou ser percebido."

"The endless cycle of idea and action,

Endless invention, endless experiment,

Brings knowledge of motion, but not of stillness;

Knowledge of speech, but not of silence;

Knowledge of words, and ignorance of the Word. "

"In spite of language, in spite of intelligence and intuition and sympathy, one can never really communicate anything to anybody. The essential substance of every thought and feeling remains incommunicable, locked up in the impenetrable strong-room of the individual soul and body. Our life is a sentence of perpetual solitary confinement."

"Nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate, nothing so childish
At a better pace, slower and more calculated, no chance of escape

(...)

Still kisses with saliva, no longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick

That's driven into frozen winter shit, the ability to laugh at weakness
Calm fitter, healthier and more productive, a pig in a cage on antibiotics"